I did it again, I promised that i wouldn't but i did.
Disappointment, a feeling of of having not met a certain standard or an expectation. I've promised over a dozen times that i won't do it again, but i did, what now?
Yeah, it was nice in the beginning, but in the end, there was a void, a feeling that it was worthless, that i've just wasted precious moments of my life and that i've just let Him down.
I'm sorry, i can't say that i didn't mean it, how could i not mean it, i'm weak, i'm frail, i admit that i was wrong, and for that, i'm sorry, i humbly apologize.
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
The Los Banos Chronicles
Monday, April 4
Morning
I started the day like any other, waking up when i want to, eating what i want, watching a little TV, stuff like that. I went to school and tried to take in as much as i could, being that the school would end soon. I spent time with my friends, worked on some requirements for UP Los Banos (I thought i was way ahead of my schedule since my registration was not until May 4) catching up on some things, talking about our lives after JASMS, the Pope, and some conspiracy theories.
After a while, we got bored, and they said that we should go watch a movie, i proposed Be Cool (John Travolta is the king of Effortless Cool!) Then i checked my wallet and found out that i didn't have any cash on me, so i said that i'd catch up with them.
Monday, April 4
Afternoon 2:00
I went to my mother's office, hoping that she would replenish my resources and allow me to go to the movies. I waited at her office up till 5:oo because she was in a meeting only to learn that she and my dad had another engagement till 8 that night. So they gave me some money and told me to go home. So I did, satisfied with my day, even though i didn't quite accomplish all the things i wanted to do, but hey, i thought, UP registration isn't until May 4.
Monday, April 4
Evening 6:00
I sat in front of the computer and started on my request letter for the forms i needed. When i was finished, i thought i'd get started on the things i needed to fill up for UPLB. So i got my letter and started filling up the blanks. BANG! There it was in black ink, it said that if they didn't receive the Reply Slip that i just started to fill up by April 4, they would forfeit my slot. I was flabbergasted. UPLB was my only chance of getting into the UP System and i was slowly losing it. I sat there like the sky suddenly lost the pillars that hoisted it up and came crashing down on me, i was sweating cold sweats, profusely! My heart was beating like a jackhammer!
What would i tell my parents? That in my quest of spending more time with my friends in the final days of my highschool life, i've neglected my responsibility of reading the letter which ultimately holds the key to my future?
I sat there in a void that i myself created, watching the clock ticking, time creeping towards the end of the day. What was i to do? Even if i had mustered enough courage to tell my parents, they were still human, they could not pull back the hands of time, then tell me to do my responsibility. So i did what any teenager would do in such a predicament. I ran upstairs, got a pen, and started jotting down what was asked for in the blanks, trying to finish it before my parents got home so i could explain it to them, and tell them that i'd already finished it. WAIT! i have a better idea! I'd call a friend of mine who was going to go to LB and ask her is she already passed hers, if she didn't then i would have someone to use in my weaseling out. So i did, but she told me that she already did. Fuck! What now?
Monday, April 4
Evening 8:00
I tried to finish the forms as fast i could, hoping to God that He would cause my parents arrival to be deterred. Then, my impending doom came with three words, BEEP! BEEP! BEEP!
I wrote in hyperdrive, and if there were speed limits to writing, i'd receive a ton of tickets. I sat there writing and i heard the chime, meaning that someone had come through the door. I immediately ran downstairs and mustered my courage as a newbie soldier musters courage when he is about to face an entire battalion of battle-hardened men.
When i told them, the happiness from their faces disappeared, like when you pop a Listerine Pocket Pak into your mouth, their faces warped and they exploded!
I tried to explain, but i knew my fault, so did the best possible defense at those type of situations, looking at the ground while keeping silent, contemplating on your possible future (since suicide isn't an answer) thinking if running away would do any good, or how you would do it and how you would survive after your great escape.
My mother said that we could rush to UPLB that night and give it to the people their, and reason out that it arrived at April 4. When i opened my mouth trying to say that that would be pointless, she told me to shut up. That was the first time i saw my mother that angry, and the first time she told me to keep my tongue still. So i didn't talk again for the remainder of the night.
My father was even more mad, he was looking forward to me studying in such a premiere university that he blew up. I couldn't blame him, he was right. I didn't do much at home, all i did was watch TV and use the PC, i didn't make my own bed, and all that stuff, and i let them down by not doing the little responsibility that i had.
Then he got up and got a glass that i put beside the computer, which i forgot to put back, and threw it to the ground, and it shattered into a million tiny pieces, and i saw my future shattering as well.
Then he said that we'd just go their in the morning to try to submit it and we'll just try to reason out why we submitted it late.
He talked to my brother if he wanted to come with us and told him to set his alarm early, very early, but he didn't even look at me, and he referred to me in the third person, like i wasn't there, or he was, for that particular moment in time, neglecting my existence.
I went upstairs, there was a subtle uneasiness in the house, and I tried, desperately tried to sleep, i prayed to God to give me shelter, to hug me in his arms at that time that i really needed Him, i think He did, because i fell asleep.
Morning
I started the day like any other, waking up when i want to, eating what i want, watching a little TV, stuff like that. I went to school and tried to take in as much as i could, being that the school would end soon. I spent time with my friends, worked on some requirements for UP Los Banos (I thought i was way ahead of my schedule since my registration was not until May 4) catching up on some things, talking about our lives after JASMS, the Pope, and some conspiracy theories.
After a while, we got bored, and they said that we should go watch a movie, i proposed Be Cool (John Travolta is the king of Effortless Cool!) Then i checked my wallet and found out that i didn't have any cash on me, so i said that i'd catch up with them.
Monday, April 4
Afternoon 2:00
I went to my mother's office, hoping that she would replenish my resources and allow me to go to the movies. I waited at her office up till 5:oo because she was in a meeting only to learn that she and my dad had another engagement till 8 that night. So they gave me some money and told me to go home. So I did, satisfied with my day, even though i didn't quite accomplish all the things i wanted to do, but hey, i thought, UP registration isn't until May 4.
Monday, April 4
Evening 6:00
I sat in front of the computer and started on my request letter for the forms i needed. When i was finished, i thought i'd get started on the things i needed to fill up for UPLB. So i got my letter and started filling up the blanks. BANG! There it was in black ink, it said that if they didn't receive the Reply Slip that i just started to fill up by April 4, they would forfeit my slot. I was flabbergasted. UPLB was my only chance of getting into the UP System and i was slowly losing it. I sat there like the sky suddenly lost the pillars that hoisted it up and came crashing down on me, i was sweating cold sweats, profusely! My heart was beating like a jackhammer!
What would i tell my parents? That in my quest of spending more time with my friends in the final days of my highschool life, i've neglected my responsibility of reading the letter which ultimately holds the key to my future?
I sat there in a void that i myself created, watching the clock ticking, time creeping towards the end of the day. What was i to do? Even if i had mustered enough courage to tell my parents, they were still human, they could not pull back the hands of time, then tell me to do my responsibility. So i did what any teenager would do in such a predicament. I ran upstairs, got a pen, and started jotting down what was asked for in the blanks, trying to finish it before my parents got home so i could explain it to them, and tell them that i'd already finished it. WAIT! i have a better idea! I'd call a friend of mine who was going to go to LB and ask her is she already passed hers, if she didn't then i would have someone to use in my weaseling out. So i did, but she told me that she already did. Fuck! What now?
Monday, April 4
Evening 8:00
I tried to finish the forms as fast i could, hoping to God that He would cause my parents arrival to be deterred. Then, my impending doom came with three words, BEEP! BEEP! BEEP!
I wrote in hyperdrive, and if there were speed limits to writing, i'd receive a ton of tickets. I sat there writing and i heard the chime, meaning that someone had come through the door. I immediately ran downstairs and mustered my courage as a newbie soldier musters courage when he is about to face an entire battalion of battle-hardened men.
When i told them, the happiness from their faces disappeared, like when you pop a Listerine Pocket Pak into your mouth, their faces warped and they exploded!
I tried to explain, but i knew my fault, so did the best possible defense at those type of situations, looking at the ground while keeping silent, contemplating on your possible future (since suicide isn't an answer) thinking if running away would do any good, or how you would do it and how you would survive after your great escape.
My mother said that we could rush to UPLB that night and give it to the people their, and reason out that it arrived at April 4. When i opened my mouth trying to say that that would be pointless, she told me to shut up. That was the first time i saw my mother that angry, and the first time she told me to keep my tongue still. So i didn't talk again for the remainder of the night.
My father was even more mad, he was looking forward to me studying in such a premiere university that he blew up. I couldn't blame him, he was right. I didn't do much at home, all i did was watch TV and use the PC, i didn't make my own bed, and all that stuff, and i let them down by not doing the little responsibility that i had.
Then he got up and got a glass that i put beside the computer, which i forgot to put back, and threw it to the ground, and it shattered into a million tiny pieces, and i saw my future shattering as well.
Then he said that we'd just go their in the morning to try to submit it and we'll just try to reason out why we submitted it late.
He talked to my brother if he wanted to come with us and told him to set his alarm early, very early, but he didn't even look at me, and he referred to me in the third person, like i wasn't there, or he was, for that particular moment in time, neglecting my existence.
I went upstairs, there was a subtle uneasiness in the house, and I tried, desperately tried to sleep, i prayed to God to give me shelter, to hug me in his arms at that time that i really needed Him, i think He did, because i fell asleep.
Friday, April 01, 2005
Turn around, every now and then I get a little bit nervous
Nostalgia, it is defined as a bittersweet longing for something long gone, a wistful or excessively sentimental yearning for return to or of some past period or irrecoverable condition.
Last night was Graduation, I sat amidst all the people that I love, who have changed my life, and my outlook on it, and for that, I thank them all.
Graduation gave me a sense of accomplishment, I learned that all those sleepless nights and days of hard labor were not wasted (also because this was my first). I was happy, i finished highschool, i had bragging rights as they would say, but then again, with finishing highschool meant leaving friends.
They declared us graduates, I knew that was it, it was probably the last time i would see my friends and batchmates ever again.
I got to tell her last night and that was enough to make me happy.
Thank you JASMS, thank you Seniors for changing my life. I would never ever forget that once in my life, i met all of you
Last night was Graduation, I sat amidst all the people that I love, who have changed my life, and my outlook on it, and for that, I thank them all.
Graduation gave me a sense of accomplishment, I learned that all those sleepless nights and days of hard labor were not wasted (also because this was my first). I was happy, i finished highschool, i had bragging rights as they would say, but then again, with finishing highschool meant leaving friends.
They declared us graduates, I knew that was it, it was probably the last time i would see my friends and batchmates ever again.
I got to tell her last night and that was enough to make me happy.
Thank you JASMS, thank you Seniors for changing my life. I would never ever forget that once in my life, i met all of you
Friday, March 18, 2005
Yahoo!
Oi, blog (kasi di ba yung iba dear diary yung sinasabi) graduate na ako sa CAT! at may medal ako (ewan ko kung para saan, kasi di naman ako perfect attendance) (siguro sinabi kaya lang di ako nakikinig) yung medal namin nakalagay Philippine Navy Reserve (hala pede akong isabak sa gera!)
Nakakamiss rin tandaan yung CAT, kahit na ayaw naming magform minsan, kasi naging parte rin to ng buhay namin (kahit na minsan gusto naming ipagkaila)
Nakakamiss rin tandaan yung CAT, kahit na ayaw naming magform minsan, kasi naging parte rin to ng buhay namin (kahit na minsan gusto naming ipagkaila)
Fidel, spin the bottle
Today, there were lots of amazing things that happened and i'd just like to list them down so that in the future, when my memory starts to dwindle away, i can look here and try to relive them.
Today was our recollection and I had loads of fun.
I really, really, REALLY wanted to cry, but the tears just wouldn't fall, but then again, deep inside, i was sobbing like a little school girl.
Today, i've rekindled my relationship with God, the message hit me hard.
Today, i saw one of the most beautiful sights i've seen in my entire life, my batchmates crying their hearts out and hugging each other in an expression of true love. The scene made me want to start crying. It was probably one of the most touching things i've ever witnessed in my life.
Today, i had the chance to share my hopes, my dreams and my life to people who would really listen.
Today, i got the chance to thank my parents for being there and for loving me even though there are times that i'm not worthy to receive such a love.
Today, i didn't have the chance to tell her, or probably, i had the chance long ago but i squandered it away. Probably she's not the person God wants for me.
Today, we played spin the bottle (with Fidel/Loid the bottle spinner) and i learned a lot about the people that surround me, and of how much they make me feel happy.
And finally today, i've loved these people that have been a part of my life more, and that i would never ever forget them for as long as i live
Today was our recollection and I had loads of fun.
I really, really, REALLY wanted to cry, but the tears just wouldn't fall, but then again, deep inside, i was sobbing like a little school girl.
Today, i've rekindled my relationship with God, the message hit me hard.
Today, i saw one of the most beautiful sights i've seen in my entire life, my batchmates crying their hearts out and hugging each other in an expression of true love. The scene made me want to start crying. It was probably one of the most touching things i've ever witnessed in my life.
Today, i had the chance to share my hopes, my dreams and my life to people who would really listen.
Today, i got the chance to thank my parents for being there and for loving me even though there are times that i'm not worthy to receive such a love.
Today, i didn't have the chance to tell her, or probably, i had the chance long ago but i squandered it away. Probably she's not the person God wants for me.
Today, we played spin the bottle (with Fidel/Loid the bottle spinner) and i learned a lot about the people that surround me, and of how much they make me feel happy.
And finally today, i've loved these people that have been a part of my life more, and that i would never ever forget them for as long as i live
Friday, March 04, 2005
The Beautiful Letdown
Was it beautiful?
I'm not sure, in a way i guess it was...
Was it a letdown?
'Course it was
The Prom, they say it's a night that ought to be remembered, but everytime i remember it, i get ashamed of myself. Sure i got to dance with her, but i didn't get to say what i wanted, i knew it would end, and that i had my chance, but i threw it down the drain; i wish it could've lasted longer, if i could have hit Time's pause button and stayed in that moment for another day, another month, or an eternity.
Were you happy?
I'm not sure, was I?
You were, but the thing that you were expecting to make you happy didn't, and the things that you didn't count on did.
Yeah, i guess
I did enjoy what happened afterwards, the hotel and all, its something that makes me regret having to graduate a few weeks from now, and leaving all the people i love.
I'm not sure, in a way i guess it was...
Was it a letdown?
'Course it was
The Prom, they say it's a night that ought to be remembered, but everytime i remember it, i get ashamed of myself. Sure i got to dance with her, but i didn't get to say what i wanted, i knew it would end, and that i had my chance, but i threw it down the drain; i wish it could've lasted longer, if i could have hit Time's pause button and stayed in that moment for another day, another month, or an eternity.
Were you happy?
I'm not sure, was I?
You were, but the thing that you were expecting to make you happy didn't, and the things that you didn't count on did.
Yeah, i guess
I did enjoy what happened afterwards, the hotel and all, its something that makes me regret having to graduate a few weeks from now, and leaving all the people i love.
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
The beauty of the things that pop into our heads
I cant really think of anything to write about my life right now...
Except maybe for the fact that we have to submit tons and tons (and i mean tons) of projects and homeworks and stuff, and that life feels crammed, and that waiting for the UPCAT results is a drag.
I'm not sure.
Should i tell her?
I've probably told some people that i'd tell her at prom, but now, i'm just not sure, (and i know that i'm being mellowdramatic again) i'm not sure if i should, because if i do, i might ruin their thing, and i don't want that, since she's happy and all, but if i don't, then i would neglect something i'd been wanting to do for a long time...
Pfff...
I'd want to tell her, but she already knows, so what's the point, but it'd be good if it really came from my own mouth (or heart [damn that was so cheezy!]) If i do, would i ruin her happiness, sabagay, hindi naman ako ganon ka importante o kalaking tao sa buhay nya para makasira ng kaligayahan niya.
I don't know man...
Hfff...all i can do is breathe these heavy breaths and hope for the best.
Except maybe for the fact that we have to submit tons and tons (and i mean tons) of projects and homeworks and stuff, and that life feels crammed, and that waiting for the UPCAT results is a drag.
I'm not sure.
Should i tell her?
I've probably told some people that i'd tell her at prom, but now, i'm just not sure, (and i know that i'm being mellowdramatic again) i'm not sure if i should, because if i do, i might ruin their thing, and i don't want that, since she's happy and all, but if i don't, then i would neglect something i'd been wanting to do for a long time...
Pfff...
I'd want to tell her, but she already knows, so what's the point, but it'd be good if it really came from my own mouth (or heart [damn that was so cheezy!]) If i do, would i ruin her happiness, sabagay, hindi naman ako ganon ka importante o kalaking tao sa buhay nya para makasira ng kaligayahan niya.
I don't know man...
Hfff...all i can do is breathe these heavy breaths and hope for the best.
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
Flatulence, Undulation, Profusely
Flatulence, a fancy word for fart; Undulation, the word curving, made longer; Profusely, also means greatly.
They just make things longer when short words would suffice. Hehehe...
Today, my back was stiff, i couldn't freakin' bend over, or stoop, or even look behind me, coz if i did, my back would sting like crazy! So that made my day bad, on top of that, the day was boring, not the boring that you do things then you stop and you get bored, i mean from start to finish, it was boring, so that made my day worse. My back still smarts...
I just remembered that i had to do something! That sucks, when you have to do something, you psyche yourself about how much you'd spend your time at home doing it (coz you really would want to) then you'd completely forget about it, and you'll only remember it when you only have a few more hours before the day's over.
By the way, I don't have my cellphone anymore, and my wallet to add to that, coz i got robbed, pfff...you know what they say, "When it rains, it pours" hfff...
I really wish the Retreat their planning gets approved, since its our last year in JASMS and all...
They just make things longer when short words would suffice. Hehehe...
Today, my back was stiff, i couldn't freakin' bend over, or stoop, or even look behind me, coz if i did, my back would sting like crazy! So that made my day bad, on top of that, the day was boring, not the boring that you do things then you stop and you get bored, i mean from start to finish, it was boring, so that made my day worse. My back still smarts...
I just remembered that i had to do something! That sucks, when you have to do something, you psyche yourself about how much you'd spend your time at home doing it (coz you really would want to) then you'd completely forget about it, and you'll only remember it when you only have a few more hours before the day's over.
By the way, I don't have my cellphone anymore, and my wallet to add to that, coz i got robbed, pfff...you know what they say, "When it rains, it pours" hfff...
I really wish the Retreat their planning gets approved, since its our last year in JASMS and all...
Monday, January 03, 2005
Au Revoir 2004
Hmm...New Year na!
Its that time of year when you remember all the good times you had, and of course those dumb, idiotic things you did the past year, the time of year where you get to reminisce and reflect on those days that are now just memories....(Whoa that was so dramatic!)
Every New Year, people get to face the reality that were just tiny specks in the great and ever continuous stream of time, and that no matter what we do, we're all ultimately going to face the same end...
Time is so darn fast! One day I'll just wake up in an apartment I can't remember with a job I don't know i have and i'll hardly recognize myself in the mirror when i look, and i'll miss the golden days, when i was in highschool, when i uhm..."studied" in JASMS, when i hardly had a care in the world, when i experienced what it was to love, all those things...
I'll miss JASMS when i graduate, and i'll miss all of you and all the memories you gave!
I love you all!
Its that time of year when you remember all the good times you had, and of course those dumb, idiotic things you did the past year, the time of year where you get to reminisce and reflect on those days that are now just memories....(Whoa that was so dramatic!)
Every New Year, people get to face the reality that were just tiny specks in the great and ever continuous stream of time, and that no matter what we do, we're all ultimately going to face the same end...
Time is so darn fast! One day I'll just wake up in an apartment I can't remember with a job I don't know i have and i'll hardly recognize myself in the mirror when i look, and i'll miss the golden days, when i was in highschool, when i uhm..."studied" in JASMS, when i hardly had a care in the world, when i experienced what it was to love, all those things...
I'll miss JASMS when i graduate, and i'll miss all of you and all the memories you gave!
I love you all!
Saturday, December 18, 2004
Thanks for the cookie!
Hmm...yesterday was the last day of school, well for the meantime that is, i mean, i wouldn't be this hyped about leaving school, in fact i don't really want to leave JASMS, or i would really need to, i hope i'd have my friends with me, coz that's what you really miss when you leave highschool, your friends, coz you know that when they're gone, you won't have as much fun as you used to, you won't have those carefree moments anymore...
Sigh...well, it was the Christmas party yesterday, and a lot of things happened, and i had the time of my life, i got to chill-chill at a friend's house (salot sobrang ganda ng bahay nila bernice! sarap matulog!) and i got to sit down, sometimes it's just fun to sitdown. I learned a lot yesterday, about women, about life, and about how some people have really interesting dreams.
I got to see my life yesterday, not the movie-about-to-die-life-flashback thing, i mean, i got to see what happens to me, i got to see the things i normally would just go about in first-person (which i know is weird considering the fact that i should know these things) I got to talk about it with joy in the afternoon and was about to follow her advice (let it pass, and try to get on along with my life, and try to find another person), really, i really felt like it was sound advice (it really was), and i thought that she was right, but that night, she came along and i saw her, and she smiled, and we got to talk, and (and i don't mean to sound all Hallmark or soap-operish and stuff) i remembered what made me like her in the first place, and...arrg! here we go again! There are times that i think, okay she's happy, i should just let it be, but then she comes along and smiles, and i fall for her again...haay....and i got to see that yesterday, i was alright with letting it be yesterday, but she came along and smiled, and poof! At least we got to talk, and i got to see her again, and she gave me a cookie, hey, i know it's just a cookie, but thanks!
So there, oh! before i forget! Kristin! the food was great! Ning! Nice new earrings! Joy! Thanks for the help! Bernice! Thanks for the party! Hannah Puyat! Nice dreams! Denise! Thanks for the Candycane! Josephine! Thanks for the gift! And to everyone else that i forgot to mention, thanks for being friends!
Thanks for the cookie!
Sigh...well, it was the Christmas party yesterday, and a lot of things happened, and i had the time of my life, i got to chill-chill at a friend's house (salot sobrang ganda ng bahay nila bernice! sarap matulog!) and i got to sit down, sometimes it's just fun to sitdown. I learned a lot yesterday, about women, about life, and about how some people have really interesting dreams.
I got to see my life yesterday, not the movie-about-to-die-life-flashback thing, i mean, i got to see what happens to me, i got to see the things i normally would just go about in first-person (which i know is weird considering the fact that i should know these things) I got to talk about it with joy in the afternoon and was about to follow her advice (let it pass, and try to get on along with my life, and try to find another person), really, i really felt like it was sound advice (it really was), and i thought that she was right, but that night, she came along and i saw her, and she smiled, and we got to talk, and (and i don't mean to sound all Hallmark or soap-operish and stuff) i remembered what made me like her in the first place, and...arrg! here we go again! There are times that i think, okay she's happy, i should just let it be, but then she comes along and smiles, and i fall for her again...haay....and i got to see that yesterday, i was alright with letting it be yesterday, but she came along and smiled, and poof! At least we got to talk, and i got to see her again, and she gave me a cookie, hey, i know it's just a cookie, but thanks!
So there, oh! before i forget! Kristin! the food was great! Ning! Nice new earrings! Joy! Thanks for the help! Bernice! Thanks for the party! Hannah Puyat! Nice dreams! Denise! Thanks for the Candycane! Josephine! Thanks for the gift! And to everyone else that i forgot to mention, thanks for being friends!
Thanks for the cookie!
Thursday, December 16, 2004
Standing on the Shoulder of Giants
I've never really tried to write an entire blog in english, it's not that i can't, it's just that i prefer writing in my native language, coz there are words that you just cant translate into english, but then again, one of the ideas in making blogs is to share your thoughts to the world, so, i'll try it, who knows, this just might be interesting.
I'm not really writing anything that would really be of great interest, i'm just writing the about the things in my mind, and every here and there, i might sneak some of the events of my life. Oh! about the title, it's an album, see as i'm writing whatever comes into my fancy, i have playing in the background.
What is in my head right now? I'm not really sure, there are the thoughts about the party tomorrow, but there are the thoughts that just won't go away, you know (or you most probably don't) those things that keep popping up into your head even though you do your best at keeping them at bay, but then again it's you that want them come back, because you just can't help yourself to ponder on these things. Is it really the way i think it is? or am i just imagining it? am i really sure that it's what i think it is? i mean come on!
Hmm...this seems nice, i think i'd like to continue this (writing blogs in english that is)
I can't think of anything else to write today, i'll just continue it tomorrow, i'm sure i'll have lots to write about.
Au revoir
I'm not really writing anything that would really be of great interest, i'm just writing the about the things in my mind, and every here and there, i might sneak some of the events of my life. Oh! about the title, it's an album, see as i'm writing whatever comes into my fancy, i have playing in the background.
What is in my head right now? I'm not really sure, there are the thoughts about the party tomorrow, but there are the thoughts that just won't go away, you know (or you most probably don't) those things that keep popping up into your head even though you do your best at keeping them at bay, but then again it's you that want them come back, because you just can't help yourself to ponder on these things. Is it really the way i think it is? or am i just imagining it? am i really sure that it's what i think it is? i mean come on!
Hmm...this seems nice, i think i'd like to continue this (writing blogs in english that is)
I can't think of anything else to write today, i'll just continue it tomorrow, i'm sure i'll have lots to write about.
Au revoir
Of Military Courtesy, Momentum, and Burned Fingers...
Hmm...today was the final day of the exams, so todo buhos na ng makakaya, anlabo nun ah...pero ganon talaga eh...
Karamihan dun sa exams, kung ano pa yung ina-anticipate mong relief sa nagdudugo mong utak, yun pa ang mas nagpasakit, adds insult to injury ika nga, pero ayos lang, I gave it my bloody best.
Astig nag-CAT kami kanina, ang saya, nakakatuwa kasi napatunayan talaga namin na ang Bravo ang tunay na Alpha (that sounded odd) tapos nagpractice kami sa Alberto Band Rehearsals, di kasi pede sa Naked Mind, twas reserved for the entire bloody day! Yaman nung taong yun! So we practiced, tapos nung mga unang try, di kami makalagpas sa 1st stanza ng kanta, tapos tunog tae pa, tapos na lecturan pa kami nung may-ari nung studio, something about his place being unconventional and stuff...di daw sya katulad ng iba...ayos din eh! Pride!
So ayon, nag-practice kami, maraming tawanan, natakot si Denise sa multong wala naman na si Ning lang pala, tumalon talon kami sa tuwa, nagkalabuan ng tutugtugin kasi iba-ibang kanta yung tinutugtog ng iba't ibang instrument, pero in the end, napatunayan namin na kaya rin pala namin, kahit na maliit na chance lang, na makapag-provide ng maganda-gandang competition sa ibang banda, ehehe...
Sobrang saya ng araw na ito, naalala ko ulit kung bakit ayaw ko, at takot akong lumisan ng JASMS, o tumanda, kasi pagkalagpas ng Highschool, di na mauulit eto, kahit gaano mo pilitin, wala na, kaya e-enjoyin ko na ang buhay ko hanggang wala pa ako masyadong responsebilidad (wow dude, sobrang lalim nyan!)
Karamihan dun sa exams, kung ano pa yung ina-anticipate mong relief sa nagdudugo mong utak, yun pa ang mas nagpasakit, adds insult to injury ika nga, pero ayos lang, I gave it my bloody best.
Astig nag-CAT kami kanina, ang saya, nakakatuwa kasi napatunayan talaga namin na ang Bravo ang tunay na Alpha (that sounded odd) tapos nagpractice kami sa Alberto Band Rehearsals, di kasi pede sa Naked Mind, twas reserved for the entire bloody day! Yaman nung taong yun! So we practiced, tapos nung mga unang try, di kami makalagpas sa 1st stanza ng kanta, tapos tunog tae pa, tapos na lecturan pa kami nung may-ari nung studio, something about his place being unconventional and stuff...di daw sya katulad ng iba...ayos din eh! Pride!
So ayon, nag-practice kami, maraming tawanan, natakot si Denise sa multong wala naman na si Ning lang pala, tumalon talon kami sa tuwa, nagkalabuan ng tutugtugin kasi iba-ibang kanta yung tinutugtog ng iba't ibang instrument, pero in the end, napatunayan namin na kaya rin pala namin, kahit na maliit na chance lang, na makapag-provide ng maganda-gandang competition sa ibang banda, ehehe...
Sobrang saya ng araw na ito, naalala ko ulit kung bakit ayaw ko, at takot akong lumisan ng JASMS, o tumanda, kasi pagkalagpas ng Highschool, di na mauulit eto, kahit gaano mo pilitin, wala na, kaya e-enjoyin ko na ang buhay ko hanggang wala pa ako masyadong responsebilidad (wow dude, sobrang lalim nyan!)
Friday, December 10, 2004
Bingo!
Ayos! May blog na ako! This is my very first blog so back off for a moment and lay off the criticism for a while, i'm not that used to sharing my thoughts over the terribly reliable and trustworthy internet. I'm not really sure what language i should write in, pero palagay ko, mas ayos siguro kung tag-lish na lang, para i won't sound like a bloody prep.
Hmm...ano ba maisusulat ko, ah oo, yung bingo kaninang hapon, kaya nga pala bingo ang title ko 'no (Caleb blushes in humiliation) hmm...astig bingo kanina, me boring parts pero sobrang saya nung palaki na ng palaki yung mga prize, ayos! Isa lang binili ko pero nung bandang gitna, 5 na yung binabantayan ko, kinontrata ko kasi yung mga may-ari na tinatamad na maglaro (ako magbabantay, tapos kung manalo, me share ako!)
Lalo na nung me mga nananalo na 4th year, talon kaming lahat eh, talaga ngang matindi ang unity ng batch namin, kasi kahit hindi kami ang panalo, masaya kami! Basta, you just can't capture the true essence of such happiness in words, it's too bloody difficult! Basta parang nanalo kaming lahat ng tig-iisang milyon sa Lotto! Pero pinaka masaya kami nung nakuha ng isang 4th year yung Grand Prize! Yeah! para kaming yung Red Sox nung nanalo ng World Series! Talon kami ng talon, slamman dito, slamman doon, basta, sobrang saya!
Trivia: (trip lang 'to, nakita ko lang kasi eh!) the word Blog is one of the most searched words in Merriam Webster online for the year 2004, hehe wala lang!
Sinusubukan ko i-preview yung blog ko, pero ayaw, hmm...bakit kaya? pangit ko daw kasi eh!
Hmm...not so bad for my first post eh? i think not, but then again, that's just me...
dont worry about the world ending today, 'coz it's already tomorrow in australia
-Charles Schultz
Hmm...ano ba maisusulat ko, ah oo, yung bingo kaninang hapon, kaya nga pala bingo ang title ko 'no (Caleb blushes in humiliation) hmm...astig bingo kanina, me boring parts pero sobrang saya nung palaki na ng palaki yung mga prize, ayos! Isa lang binili ko pero nung bandang gitna, 5 na yung binabantayan ko, kinontrata ko kasi yung mga may-ari na tinatamad na maglaro (ako magbabantay, tapos kung manalo, me share ako!)
Lalo na nung me mga nananalo na 4th year, talon kaming lahat eh, talaga ngang matindi ang unity ng batch namin, kasi kahit hindi kami ang panalo, masaya kami! Basta, you just can't capture the true essence of such happiness in words, it's too bloody difficult! Basta parang nanalo kaming lahat ng tig-iisang milyon sa Lotto! Pero pinaka masaya kami nung nakuha ng isang 4th year yung Grand Prize! Yeah! para kaming yung Red Sox nung nanalo ng World Series! Talon kami ng talon, slamman dito, slamman doon, basta, sobrang saya!
Trivia: (trip lang 'to, nakita ko lang kasi eh!) the word Blog is one of the most searched words in Merriam Webster online for the year 2004, hehe wala lang!
Sinusubukan ko i-preview yung blog ko, pero ayaw, hmm...bakit kaya? pangit ko daw kasi eh!
Hmm...not so bad for my first post eh? i think not, but then again, that's just me...
dont worry about the world ending today, 'coz it's already tomorrow in australia
-Charles Schultz
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